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I'm A Schizophrenic And So Am I

Ravi Godse
diazepam | Valium
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By telephone, Christina tells the 911 operator, “I’m on a tall building, and I’m about to jump. I’m going to kill myself.” (0:01)

Physician Ravi: “I am a schizophrenic... I’m making it a little confusing.” (0:02)

Television reporter: “You recall just a few days ago there were serious questions about Dr. Ravi’s sanity... checked himself into a psychiatric unit... Many people think that Dr. Ravi is faking insanity... The question asked increasingly is whether patients are getting third-world care...” (0:03)

Unit clerk Sandy tells Ravi, “You have only one patient today.”
”It’s a female patient...”
Ravi: “My patient, and nice?”
Sandy: “Well, all of your patients... were nasty about it.” (0:04)

Ravi tells someone by telephone, “I can’t discharge that patient.”
Christina tells Ravi, “They thought I had Kallmann’s syndrome.”
Ravi: “Who told you... you have Kallmann’s syndrome?”
Christina: “I’m very depressed.”
Ravi: “As PCP... suicidal intent is beyond me. I’m insisting on sending you to a psychiatric emergency room.”
Christina: “I didn’t say I was going to kill myself.”
Ravi: “Don’t make me... commit you against your will.”
Christina: “I’ll see my psych today.”
Referring to her husband: “He’s the one that told me to see a psychiatrist in the first place.”
The clerk asks Ravi, “Will you sign some blank prescriptions for me?”
Ravi: “Sandy, not in front of patients.” (0:05)

Ravi tells his physician wife Lisa, “It’s a malpractice.” (0:09)

Ravi: “Look, what happened between me and her is privileged.”
”I saw a patient... If there’s a problem, her family can sue me for malpractice.”
By telephone Ravi tells Sandy, “Call the best malpractice lawyer...”
Sandy: “You should have seen the mangled remains of our patient...”
”The cops had me... make sure it was the same patient.” (0:10)

Attorney Mark asks Ravi, “Who was that patient who wandered in out of nowhere?”
”I want to... find out whether she was a doper...”
”You think that we will lose this stupid case because of your guilt complex?” (0:15)

Lisa tells Mark, referring to Ravi, “He’s a little crazy about this morality... but I think he’s losing... both his mind and the case.” (0:18)

Emergency technician: “Doc, are you taking any medicines? Were you drinking any alcohol tonight?” (0:21)

Emergency physician Weinstein tells Lisa, “Dr. Ravi’s testing positive for drugs.”
”His urine’s filled with Valium.”
”Your husband’s testing positive for dope.” (0:21)

Sandy tells Mark, referring to Ravi, “When I left him he was hearing voices, and he was seeing things. (0:22)

Mark asks Ravi, “You’re hearing voices?”
Ravi: “You are hearing that I’m hearing voices.”
”Drugs are in my urine that I don’t remember taking. I’m seeing things.” (0:22)

The reporter tells Christina’s husband Paul, “We don’t want to open old wounds, but tell us about your grief.”
Mark: “You are nuts.”
Paul: “If a surgeon shows up drunk for a surgery, and he butchers his patient, should it be tried as a malpractice suit?”
Reporter: “The nation shares grief for your wife.” (0:25)

Ravi tells Lisa, “I’m hearing things.” (0:26)

A hospital staff woman tells Ravi, “You can see patients also... Idiot.” (0:27)

Ravi tells psychiatrist Woolman, “I was a little shaken when I started hearing things and seeing things.”
Woolman: “Look, you’re here on a voluntary commitment...”
Ravi: “I’m just a regular patient.” (0:27)

Ravi tells Mark, “It’s a simple malpractice suit.” (0:30)

Ravi talks to a patient in the hospital day room. (0:31)

The plaintiff’s attorney addresses the jury, referring to Christina and Ravi: “She told him she was suicidal... and she took her own life. This is gross negligence... Furthermore, we object to Dr. Ravi... hiding behind patient's clothes... trying to masquerade as a psychiatric basket case.” (0:33)

Sandy, on the witness stand, referring to Ravi: “He could diagnose you in seconds.”
Plaintiff’s attorney: “... it’s foolish to be his patient.”
Sandy: “I heard him tell her to see a psych doctor.” (0:35)

Private detective Yellin tells Mark, “So, if I was killing myself...”
”If I were to kill myself like that, I’d jump out feet first, not dive head first.” (0:39)

Mark: “I’m surrounded by idiots.” (0:41)

The 911 operator tells the court, “It was a girl who said she was going to kill herself.”
Plaintiff’s attorney: “She is not a psychiatrist.” (0:41)

The plaintiff’s attorney tells his client Paul, “First of all, let me say that we share your grief and are saddened by your loss.”
”He may be... just a grieving father.”
Mark asks Paul, ”Have you heard about suicide bombers?”
”Did your wife kill herself so that you would become rich after she was gone?”
”Did your wife kill herself to punish Dr. Ravi?”
”Did she kill herself to punish the doctor?”
”So it was her intention to kill herself even before she saw the doctor?”
”She was having thoughts of killing herself?”
”You married a person with a lot of psychological problems.”
”Yet within three months of marrying you she was having thoughts of killing herself.”
”She wants to kill herself.”
”She kills herself, and you blame the doctor?”
”But he did not drive her to suicide.”
Plaintiff’s attorney: ”Are you suggesting that a six week pregnant mother will kill herself?” (0:43)

Reporter: “Are immigrant doctors providing third world service to American patients?” (0:47)

Mark tells Ravi, “You’re not crazy. You didn’t hear any voices that were not there.”
Ravi: “It’s an insane theory.”
Mark: “Insane?”
”Even after knowing that you were being admitted to a psychiatric hospital for hearing things?”
Ravi: “But I was seeing things. There were drugs in my urine that I didn’t remember taking.”
Mark, referring to Sandy: “I know... but if she was involved, then that explains the... prescription for Valium...”
Mark: “I know you don’t take drugs. Drugs were in your urine.”
”Are you crazy?” (0:48)

Ravi: “It mattered very little that... I was as drugged as a doornail.” (0:50)

Mark tells Yellin, “Yes, but in her death, like a suicide bomber, she has made him rich.”
Referring to Sandy and Paul: “Then they put the Valium in his coffee... They got a lucky break when he got crazy.”
”You don’t think there’s a conspiracy: the Valium in the coffee, the fake prescriptions?”
”What kind of a man drinks beer with 50 other people 3 hours after his pregnant wife tells him she’s suicidal?” (0:51)

Ravi tells the hospital staff woman, “I’m here on a voluntary commitment.”
Woman: “You are a patient.”
”... but since you yourself are the patient...” (0:54)

Mark asks Ravi, “Have you really gone crazy?”
Ravi: “In fact Christina was not drugged...” (0:55)  

Ravi tells a friend, “It was a wrong diagnosis...” (0:57)

Yellin tells Ravi and Mark, referring to a missing woman, “She took the flight the day after the suicide.”

Mark: “The day after the suicide.” (0:59)

The Polish father of a missing woman tells one of Yellin’s assistants, “My whole family is going crazy.” (1:02)

The plaintiff’s attorney tells Mark, “We still have to hear from a psych doctor...”
Mark tells the judge, “I’m agreeing that letting go of a suicidal patient is criminally negligent.” (1:02)

Mark asks Sandy on the witness stand, referring to Paul, “Did he ever suggest that you put Valium in his coffee?”
Sandy: “Are you suggesting that I drugged Dr. Ravi?” (1:04)

Mark tells Paul on the witness stand, referring to Paul’s wife, “She is so stressed that she is contemplating taking her own life... Well, what would you call a husband who sits sipping beer as his wife jumps to her death?”
Paul: ”She was going to meet me at the bar, and we were going to discuss her psych appointment at length.”
Mark: “I mean she was pretty badly smashed up... since she chose to dive out head first as opposed to jump as I do when I commit suicide.”
Paul: “What, are you crazy?” (1:07)

Ravie tells Mark, “Once I realized Kallmann’s syndrome patients don’t smell I looked back...” (1:14)

Ravi tells a group of reporters,“Because she had Kallmann’s syndrome.”
Reporter: “... Kallmann syndrome?”
Mark: “... when Ravi seemed to be going crazy...” (1:15)

Ravi: “It was a learning experience to spend some time in the psychiatric ward. We doctors need to do that... to see things from patient’s point of view... Christina coming to the court in disguise was a crazy risk. I’m not sure I like that word crazy anymore. You know, there’s a little bit of crazy in all of us, but how well we keep that guy separate in a part of our defenses.” (1:17)