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Reese Witherspoon, Laura Dern, Gaby Hoffmann, Brian Van Holt, W. Earl Brown, Thomas Sadoski, Kevin Rankin, Michiel Huisman, Mo McRae
crack cocaine | heroin
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Cheryl tells a motorist giving her a ride, “Well, I mean, I’m not obsessive, but it’s quite a stretch, even for me.” (0:10)

Cheryl reads: “Today a backhoe divulged out of a crumbling flank of earth, one bottle amber, perfect, a hundred-year-old cure for fever or melancholy...” (0:16)

Tractor drive Frank tells Cheryl, referring to her husband Paul, “Well, he must be crazy...” (0:27)

Paul tells Cheryl, “It’s been a wonderful and crazy seven years.” (0:30)

Flash closeup of lighting a crack pipe. (0:35)

Cheryl tells her friend Aimee: “It’ not like I’m some junkie. I’m in control.”
Aimee: “Yeah, like everyone is on drugs?” (0:35)

Camper Ed tells Cheryl, “And your pack, it’s insane.” (0:45)

Reporter Jimmy tells Cheryl, “... I’ve noticed it’s often personal trauma that forces people out of their life...” (0:53)

Grief overcomes Cheryl as she realizes her mother Bobbi has died. (1:05)

Flash closeup of heroin cooking in foil. (1:06)

A man injects Cheryl’s leg below a tourniquet. (1:09)

Cheryl tells Bobbi, “You’re all by yourself because you married some abusive alcoholic asshole.”
Bobbi: “Do I regret marrying an abusive alcoholic asshole?” (1:10)

Cheryl tells hiker Stacy, “My mother used to say something that drove me nuts.” (1:14)

Her psychotherapist tells Cheryl, “That’s fifty bucks an hour therapy. This is ten bucks an hour therapy.”
Cheryl: “Is that your job, to tell the bereaved they’re grieving too much?”
”People grieve in all sorts of different ways.”
”You’re using heroin and having sex with anyone who asks.” (1:15)

Scene suggesting physical abuse of Bobbi. (1:17)

Cheryl sprinkles ashes of Bobbi on her grave, swallowing some of them. (1:18)

Flash of inhaling vapors from cooking heroin. (1:19)

Cheryl: “Then I moved to Portland with crazy Joe. The first time I smoked heroin I laughed like a child... Then we snorted it, but we were never going to shoot it.”
Joe injects Cheryl’s leg.
“The first time I shot up, I begged...” (1:19)

Paul asks Cheryl, “Heroin?” (1:20)

Cheryl: “What if heroin taught me something?” (1:48)

Cheryl: “After I lost myself in the wilderness of my grief I found my way out of the woods.” (1:49)